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i messed up my fast, i really wanted to go through with it but my parents force me to eat dinner, and so does everyone around me. my new boyfriend suspects already only 3 weeks into it, hes like "you never eat. i never see you eat" ugh, anyway i need to do better, i cant force myself to fast becasue its not going to work with people around me, so new goal cut out as much food as i can dont eat unless forced, and when i do it keep it under 300 cals. and i have to work out!! im starting to get weak and dizzy and etc.

question- green tea pills- do they work?

3 day fast.

starting  12 o clock till weds..

anyone wanna join, give support <3

during this fast only coffee,water, TEA.

Any one up for fasting with me for tomorrow and maybe the next 3 days or so.. i really need this, im so disgusted with myself.

Wow! i think this is the longest break i took from xanga in xanga history, if your woundering what happened i was just tired of the whole world of xanga...but as you see i am back, and here to stay...ughh im doing horrible. i just wanna get back on track and hope you girls are there to help me!

Plllllease give me your encouragment, and i will definitly get back to all your comments that have been left.

Thinspo?? i think so..

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well today wasnt that great of a day, i dunno. i wasnt just in a happy mood, so i stayed home, looked at some magazines, and my aunt bought me home some starbucks.

my intake today was like this:

b- 2 bottles of water.

l- 5 fruit snacks 50 cals. and diet coke w/splenda

d- my mom made me eat some pasta, so i kinda made it look like i ate more then i did, but their was also chicken in it, but their was a side of broccoli.  i had 3 peices of broccolli, and some pasta.. estimation about 250 cals.

starbucks i had a tall iced caramel macchiato w/ lowfat milk, 140 cals. (found this out from the little nutrition book i picked up from starbucks)

then after 2 more bottles of water.

thats brings me to a total of. 440 cals. ehh.

stay strong everyone<3

well tonight im gonna workout, then drink a glass of hot plain green tea.